Re: The closure thread
 

Great thread. I'm not sure when or how I will get closure on this. Everytime I see a picture of Sean and "RIP" or "Sean Taylor dies" I want to cry. I can't look at his picture without wondering what his last minutes were like. I still think about Sean squeezing the doctor's hand and making facial expressions and thinking, "What was he thinking?" or "How coherent was he?" I keep thinking about his daughter. I keep thinking about how terrified his wife must have been. I keep thinking about his bleeding on the ground and wondering if he suffered much. I keep thinking about him flatlining. I keep wondering whether his life could have been saved had the landlines been working and had he gotten to the hospital 10 or so minutes earlier. I am still stunned and in a state of disbelief when I think that he will never suit up for us.

I haven't been able to listen to music, because I feel too depressed. I was watching the Sixth Sense on TV last night and got chills in the opening scene when Bruce Willis is shot and laying down on the bed. I feel like I lost a brother and simply can't believe he's gone.

I think everyone deals with grief in his or her own way. I also think that everyone on this site love Sean as much as I did. But, for whatever reason, I don't think I am going to get over this for a long time.

Re: The closure thread
 

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[B] I was looking forward to seeing him on Sunday's.[/B] [B]I was looking forward to extending the history that we had. I would wait 120 hours during the week to spend time with the Washington Redskins and Sean Taylor just for three hours (or whatever it is) on gameday. Every Sunday our bond extended itself by another three hours. I held those three hours close and dear to my heart and mind. Now it's become clear that Taylor and I have no more three hours left to share. [/B]Superman has gone home. Oh, I'm sure there will be another super hero to land in Ashburn at some point, but you had better believe he won't be any Sean Taylor. Even if, by definition, he's a greater football player. He won't be Sean Taylor. And while I'll embrace him soley because of those burgundy and gold colors, I'm not sure he'll bring them to life quite like Sean Taylor did....for three hours every Sunday.

Sean, my next three hours on Sunday won't ever be quite the same now that you're gone.

Sean we love you.[/quote]

You just wrote the words that I have been struggling to write..

Re: The closure thread
 

I haven't been posting a lot in light of this tragedy. I guess I deal with loss differently than some on this site, but for me not surrounding myself with it helped. I was seriously a zombie at work these past few days but last nite I went out with some friends and it really helped. I've been going through denial and just found myself wishing that somehow something could be changed, but am slowly starting to accept it. I've always considered myself a die-hard skins fan, but i never would have dreamt in a million years that I would have felt such a personal connection with a player who passed away. I mean for christ's sake i didn't even feel like this when my own high school friend was murdered. It's peculiar how we identify with athletes and sports figures who we don't know outside of their uniform, but it's real nonetheless. I think by writing this up I am personally allowing myself to say goodbye and begin the healing process.

Goodbye Sean, U will be missed and never forgotten...

Re: The closure thread
 

I haven't been posting a lot in light of this tragedy. I guess I deal with loss differently than some on this site, but for me, not surrounding myself with it helped. I was a zombie at work these past few days but last night I went out with some friends and it really really helped. I've been going through denial and just found myself wishing that somehow something could be changed, but I am slowly starting to accept it. I've always considered myself a die-hard skins fan, but i never would have dreamt in a million years that I would have felt such a personal connection with a player who passed away. I mean for christ's sake i didn't even feel like this when my own high school friend was murdered. It's peculiar how we identify with athletes and sports figures who we don't know outside of their uniform, but it's real nonetheless. I think by writing this up I am personally allowing myself to say goodbye and begin the healing process.

Goodbye Sean, you will be missed and never forgotten...

Re: The closure thread
 

I haven't been posting a lot in light of this tragedy. I guess I deal with loss differently than some on this site, but for me, not surrounding myself with it helped. I was a zombie at work these past few days but last night I went out with some friends and it really really helped. I've been going through denial and just found myself wishing that somehow something could be changed, but am slowly starting to accept it. I've always considered myself a die-hard skins fan, but i never would have dreamt in a million years that I would have felt such a personal connection with a player who passed away. I mean for christ's sake i didn't even feel like this when my own high school friend was murdered. It's peculiar how we identify with athletes and sports figures who we don't know outside of their uniform, but it's real nonetheless. I think by writing this up I am personally allowing myself to say goodbye and begin the healing process.

Goodbye Sean, you will be missed and never forgotten...