[Rajmahal33]

I haven't been posting a lot in light of this tragedy. I guess I deal with loss differently than some on this site, but for me not surrounding myself with it helped. I was seriously a zombie at work these past few days but last nite I went out with some friends and it really helped. I've been going through denial and just found myself wishing that somehow something could be changed, but am slowly starting to accept it. I've always considered myself a die-hard skins fan, but i never would have dreamt in a million years that I would have felt such a personal connection with a player who passed away. I mean for christ's sake i didn't even feel like this when my own high school friend was murdered. It's peculiar how we identify with athletes and sports figures who we don't know outside of their uniform, but it's real nonetheless. I think by writing this up I am personally allowing myself to say goodbye and begin the healing process.

Goodbye Sean, U will be missed and never forgotten...