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Originally Posted by Sheriff Gonna Getcha

I definitely am. I can't explain it and it's sick, but I keep imagining what the night of his death was like. Images of Taylor gasping for air, Jackie covered in blood, the baby crying, Taylor bleeding on a gurney, flatlining in the OR, and squeezing the nurses hand haunt my brain even though I didn't experience anything first hand. I keep asking myself, "Did he suffer" and "Was he semi-conscious when he squeezed that doctor's or nurse's hand?" It's crazy and it sucks. I will never forget the feeling I had when I read on CNN.com that Sean had been shot. I still don't think I've fully come to terms with the fact that we will never see him in uniform again.

I keep thinking that both Sean Taylor and my roomate from college died this past fall the same way; by getting shot in femoral artery and bleeding to death. Up until three months ago I wouldn't have had a clue what the femoral artery was or that getting shot in the leg could kill you. Both died as heroes and I hope won't ever be forgotten.