[warpaint]

I had back surgery at one time. While I was in rehab or pysical therapy my doctor, after 6 months of constent painkillers and what have you. They put me on some anti-depression pills with everything else. So the first night on them I was seeing crazy faces at night the harder I tried to get my mind right the worse it got. I started to feel like I just wanted to get a knife and start to hurt myself and the urge was so strong I slept with a knife under my pillow. I told the doctor how it made me feel, but I was told to give it a week. I never felt depressed prior to taking those pills. I took them for a month and a half and every day was a challenge. Once I stop taking them, a since of comfort came back to me. I trusted those Doctor that said they had my best intrest in mind. But they ignored my constent complaints atleast in my mind.

I feel good now but for that time in my life, I thought about suicide. So you cant jump judgement until you are in that persons shoes and trust me you dont want to be there. So what I am trying to say is she could have been on some meds that made her feel that way,her dosage might have been to much who knows. This is a very sad story and it hits my heart very deeply.

Forgive me for my candor. I dont open up ever, but some of the post I just read, I just hope that you can open your mind and not think of it as a selfless act. Get the whole story first before you jump to conclusions. May GOD rest her soul if possible.