[SmootSmack]

The worst year of my life. In the first five months, five different relatives died. One each month, some unexpectedly others after long painful battles. Then things calmed down over the summer. The fall began with the wonderful news that me wife and I were expecting our first child this spring. Not only that but five other cousins were too all around the same time.

But now as the year ends with just a few months to go until my son is born we're told the baby has basically no chance at survival. So we have the option of ending it now or letting him die on his own, probably over the next few weeks. I cant even begin to describe how horrible this feeling is. For my wife to still feel him kicking, for us to see ultrasounds of him only to know we may never get to hold him. All my wife keeps telling me is "I just want to hold him in my arms, even if just for one minute before he goes" I'm getting teary eyed just writing this, so F...2010