The closure thread

[Sheriff Gonna Getcha]

Great thread. I'm not sure when or how I will get closure on this. Everytime I see a picture of Sean and "RIP" or "Sean Taylor dies" I want to cry. I can't look at his picture without wondering what his last minutes were like. I still think about Sean squeezing the doctor's hand and making facial expressions and thinking, "What was he thinking?" or "How coherent was he?" I keep thinking about his daughter. I keep thinking about how terrified his wife must have been. I keep thinking about his bleeding on the ground and wondering if he suffered much. I keep thinking about him flatlining. I keep wondering whether his life could have been saved had the landlines been working and had he gotten to the hospital 10 or so minutes earlier. I am still stunned and in a state of disbelief when I think that he will never suit up for us.

I haven't been able to listen to music, because I feel too depressed. I was watching the Sixth Sense on TV last night and got chills in the opening scene when Bruce Willis is shot and laying down on the bed. I feel like I lost a brother and simply can't believe he's gone.

I think everyone deals with grief in his or her own way. I also think that everyone on this site love Sean as much as I did. But, for whatever reason, I don't think I am going to get over this for a long time.